Seven years ago on January 20th, there was what is called a "Blood Moon". (certain type of eclipse) I happend to be visiting my best friend in El paso when this occured, which also happens to be my birthday. It was very beautiful, and did indeed look like blood pouring down the moon until it was completly red. At the time of this spectacular event, I was just starting to see the current nervous breakdown I am still with. I've struggled through the last 7 years, trying to make things better and guess what? It continues not to only get worse, but in the process I fell out of love. A few days ago, I started thinking about this "moon" that happend back then, and I can't help but wonder did it have some effect on my judgement? Meaning...around my birthday this year, I finally realized I JUST CAN'T STAND HIM ANYMORE! We've all heard of the "seven year itch", but what if, in my particular case, it was the "Blood Moon" all along? Very interesting.

I have the blues today. This rarely happens to me, and it's certainly no fun. I get very quiet, and retrospective. I'm also very hard on myself, and some of the choices I've made. It's like my whole day has been, "should've, could've, and why did'nt". Living w/someone who's a borderline alcoholic, is very challenging this time of year. Get togathers are tense, everyone on edge about what he's going to say, or do. I used to truly love this season, but now it's something to "get through". I ask myself how could I have been so dumb to even have been interseted in him in the 1st place, let alone why I've stayed as long as I have. This time next year, I plan on having the TIME OF MY LIFE, finally w/out him, and no turning back. Here's to me, and 2007. Going to be a great year for me, I can tell already.

I grew up eating Thanksgiving dinners in which everything was made from scratch. Pies, dressings, yeast rolls, etc.. I have carried that tradition into my family holiday meals. I use store bought goods, and quick fix dinners during the year, but just can't bring myself to do it on the Holidays. I will be up around 5 in the morning on thursday, in order to have everything done by 2pm when everyone will arrive to eat. My pies will be done wednesday night, in order to save time for everything else thursday morning. I'm lucky to be able to do this I know. I'm sure there are alot of people, who do to work schedules have no time for "do it yourself", and all these "Betty Crocker" help outs are a godsend. I enjoy cooking, just as long as everyone else stays out of the kitchen! Want to help? Do the dishes later! I do however, have one confession to make...all the "china" on my table thursday, along w/the glassware, will be paper, and plastic!! No matter what, you've gotta make something easy right?!

There has been a recall on several medications, that are availiable over the counter. They all include an ingedient called "PHENYLPROPOLAMINE". This is causing women, and children hemorrhagic strokes, and seizures. I was horrified to say the least when I read the list! Alka-selzer cold products, Triaminic, and Dimetapp all topped the list.Here is a website you can go to, and recieve not only info on this from the FDA, but get on a e-mail list to inform you of any new medications that there are alerts on.....http://www.fda.gov/cder/drug/infopage/ppa/ You can also receive free postage on any of these medications (to send them back) and a full refund, w/or without a receipt. call the 1-800 # listed on the box of whatever you have for this. I hope I help someone by posting this message.

Ok, to name a few he had that his victims did'nt...How about "LIFE", thats a good example, or seeing relatives, having birthdays, just about any old thing you can do while alive, thats what he got that they did'nt. I've been asked what I would do if one of my children were on death row. I'd tell them they better beg forgiveness from just about everyone for starters. Would I hate to see them put to death? Thats only natural, but justice is'nt in my hands. Would I try to stamp out the death penalty because of one of my family members? No, I would not.I believe everyone feels differently about things when their family is involved, but I also believe in paying for your mistakes, and my children are raised as such. On the flip side of this, if you were against the death penalty, and were given the choice of saving the condemned prisoners life by taking them home to live w/you, and your family, or letting them be executed, would you then make them part of your family?